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02 February 2005 @ 08:50 am
Keep The Perspective  
From this week's Justice League Unlimited:

"I never thought to see Batman play good cop."
"Everything's relative."

Fluffy and Mostly Inoffensive Coworker are grumping (loudly) about The Contractor. (Oddly enough, one of their complaints involves The Contractor refusing to run something in Production that I wouldn't have any qualms doing. But I do support her decision not to run junk in Production.)

As odd as it seems for me to say such a thing, I think this is a Bad Sign. At this point in time it's become clear to me that The Contractor is going to be the one taking over my job. After further correspondence with My Little Lamb, it's pretty obvious that he thinks he's going to run in, do a little bit of migration work and then split, leaving my programs to... well, take care of themselves, it seems. It hasn't worked for the four years I've been here, so I don't see any reason why it should suddenly start now. Someone HAS to keep doing my job for as long as these systems are used for making product. It's critically important both for actually getting labels printed, and for making sure that the FDA remains happy with the company. Phasing out the programs is an option. (Time consuming, admitted. But still an option.) Leaving the programs in place with no support is not.

(And that's just the support aspects. I'm still getting weekly requests for new enhancements. Several of them are enough of a headache to implement that I'm glad I can smile and say, gee, I'm glad I won't be here when you're ready to tackle that problem. Have fun, good luck!")

Whenever I hear things like this I have to stop myself. My instinct is to go running around making a fuss and getting someone to Pay Attention Because This Is IMPORTANT. They are being stupid and not making the decisions that they need to make in order to keep the systems running and the business functioning. But, no. Really, is it important to me? No. Absolutely not. I'm not the one deciding to leave here, someone else is making that decision for me.

And yet... Really, I am making the decision. Leaving is exactly according to my plan. I would not be one bit happier if suddenly The Powers That Be At My Dorky Company suddenly woke up one day and said "what were we thinking? We must keep Sandpanther around!" In fact, I would be very, very unhappy if they did that. So why am I fussed that it looks like they are going to screw things up after I leave?

It all comes down to being miffed that I feel like I'm being thrown out. Which is silly, really. Their timeline for my leaving the company and my original idea on when to leave are completely in line. If anything, they are giving me a month longer than I want to have to take. (If that makes sense? I want to be able to give notice before leaving for Mexico.) Right now it's all in the perspective. Am I being thrown out? Or am I leaving because it's time to find a better job, one with growth potential and coworkers I like rather than openly mock and deride? Gee, that should be pretty obvious.

Still, it kinda irks me that they are throwing me out. It's like the old "you can't fire me, I quit first!" I want to have the power to quit first, rather than have them show me the door.

I really should find some "I'm thinking about boring, Real Life stuff" icons. I'm figuring that I'm going to be doing a lot more thinking before my life finally settles down again, and I'm betting that not all of my friends want to read my pointless blabbering.

And my home-made apple cider with the caramel sauce that seshat gave me for Christmas is really, really decadant. ^__^
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
SnarkyLlamallamabitchyo on February 2nd, 2005 09:35 pm (UTC)
Why is he a lamb? Is it just the lamb-to-the-slaughter thing? Or is he woolly?
Sandpanthersandpanther on February 2nd, 2005 11:09 pm (UTC)
He's a lamb heading to the slaughter. The poor thing has no idea what awaits him, mwahahaha.
SnarkyLlamallamabitchyo on February 3rd, 2005 02:14 pm (UTC)
Maybe you should give him a little thing of mint jelly before you leave.
Sandpanthersandpanther on February 3rd, 2005 04:14 pm (UTC)

*ahem* Sorry.

Little Lamb does not realize, but Psycho Freak Boss says that Little Lamb is the Designated Successor To The Sandpanther. (As if anyone could replace my gloriousness! *ahem* Too much Katamari Damacy. Maybe I can make the Little Lamb roll around picking stuff up in the warehouse? Yes, I think I like this idea.)
SnarkyLlamallamabitchyo on February 3rd, 2005 04:37 pm (UTC)
By now, you've certainly rolled up a sheep or two...
Sandpanthersandpanther on February 3rd, 2005 04:56 pm (UTC)
But I don't want to roll up my little lamb. I want to pull out the popcorn and watch the fun as he spins around in circles trying to figure out how to do my job. *snerk* Because I'm just sadistic that way.
Jeanneseshat on February 3rd, 2005 10:25 pm (UTC)
Heh. When my group got canned at Nasa, our job roles got handed to a group in Alabama that was already responsible for monitoring building environmentals and power. They were given none of my tools for determining if something was an issue or not, and certainly none of my training. Cause, y'know, people that sit and look at blinky monitors are completely interchangeable.

There was a month long transition where I fielded increasingly frantic calls of "How do I tell if something is really DOWN?!?" They didn't even know what ping WAS, let alone how to use it.

I'm glad you enjoy the caramel. I hear it goes well with popcorn too.
puddlemizutamari on February 4th, 2005 02:32 pm (UTC)
hunnie, don't you know ANYTHING about NASA? When they fire people, they go out and hire the DUMBEST people they can find and fail to give them any training whatsoever! lucifie can back me up on this one!
Jeanneseshat on February 4th, 2005 10:47 pm (UTC)
Oh, I know. This was all contract games. The group at Marshall Space Flight Center outbid the group at NASA Ames to own the chunk of network my group babysat. It had everything to do with government contracts and nothing to do with the competence of the employees.

I was just mostly amused that the network operations center role was transitioned to people who monitored building environmentals. The logic (or lack thereof) just boggles me. I believe the thinking was that they didn't need to know anything about networks to open a ticket and escalate anytime something went red on the map.

...of course, one of the things we owned was the government side of Mae-east and west, and the icons on the map went red any time a peer flapped. If you drilled down you could see which peer, but the top layer just showed the whole peering point down.

The month long transition WAS these poor people's training. I felt really bad for them, because 90% of the time, the answer to their questions was 'I use a skill/tool/knowledge/network access that you don't have and won't get'.