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05 August 2004 @ 04:55 pm
My handwriting is atrocious. It's always been awful. People look at my writing and tell me that I missed my calling as a doctor.

Oddly enough, I was just thinking through a work problem, and I think I realized why my handwriting is so terrible.

The reason this hit me was that I was writing at normal speed, and my arm was getting tired from keeping up. See, I also tend to write very quickly. I never really thought about it, but this time I remembered Psycho Freak Boss mentioning that he had really bad handwriting as a child, and as a result his teachers made him write with an ink pen. Not a ball-point, but an actual, old-fashioned ink pen. The reason for this was that one can't write too quickly with an ink pen. The ink doesn't flow out fast enough, so what appears on the page is an erratic mix of strokes from where the ink flowed and didn't.

This set me to thinking: why do I write so quickly? It's not something I ever really considered. I generally try to do everything quickly, it's just how I do things.

Then it hit me: I write quickly because when I was taking notes off of the board in school, I was always the slowest kid. I couldn't see the board well enough to make out what was written there without a lot of effort, so I was very slow copying things off the board. I almost never was able to get things down before the teacher was erasing things in order to make room for more stuff up on the board.)

Why I was so slow was because, well, I couldn't see. I know I needed glasses for years before I got them. I remember even down into third or fourth grade being scolded for not copying notes down fast enough. I would complain that I couldn't see the board. The teachers told me to move so that I could. They thought I was being snide or silly when I would walk right up to the board and sit on the ground only a few feet away. I wasn't. I honestly could not see that far. They never figured out that the problem was that I was near-sighted.

(Actually, I'm not just near-sighted; I'm also far-sighted, and I have an astigmatism in each eye. Getting contacts that would fix everything would be ridiculously expensive. But that's neither here nor there.)

Just for reference, I didn't end up getting glasses until I was in eighth grade. And it wasn't because some teacher noticed that I couldn't read things unless I was right up in front. It was because I had to go to the optomitrist to get a metal splinter removed. But that's a story for another time.

Damn. The radio just started playing "Sand In My Shoes". I think I need to go home and cry now. I want to go on vacation so badly I can't even describe it. I miss Wales. *sniff*
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: "Sand In My Shoes", Dido
Cirdancirdan_havens on August 6th, 2004 02:51 am (UTC)
Metal splinter...? o_O Glad it worked.

Yeah, same. -_- Except that I wasn't as bad off. And copied notes off my friend. If only I'd stopped passing those eye exams, I would've gotten glasses sooner. But I could vaguely make out the letters and guess them.

Contacts that expensive? Because of the multiple problems, I assume. Well, I know you mentioned being legally blind. I know it's disturbing (at least for me), but considered laser eye surgery? Might actually be worth it in your case. And who knows. Might even help those... um, what did you call them? Visual migraines? Something like that. Those moments you get when you can't see big chunks of things but can see behind them. Eh. I'm sure you have considered it, but I thought I'd throw that out anyway.
puddlemizutamari on August 6th, 2004 03:04 am (UTC)
you and me both sweetie... I feel overdue for a vacation... It's been almost a YEAR! *sniffs and sobs*
Leighlucifie on August 6th, 2004 02:17 pm (UTC)
You know.. that reminds me when I got glasses, we didn't realise what the problem was until I was messing with my Mom's glasses one day. It was really freaky suddenly being able to see things, I had to ask my parents what the mountains were.

I'm opposite to you on the contacts though I was required to wear hard lenses for about 4 years my eyes detriorated so fast (new perscription every 8 months). I hated those things.

Metal splinter? Owwww.. >.O

Still time to get to GB?
Sandpanthersandpanther on August 6th, 2004 02:28 pm (UTC)
It was a small metal splinter. And really, it didn't hurt much. Being forced to watch TV for three days while it healed (and being absolutely forbidden to read) probably was more painful.

Still time to go to GB. Money... maybe not so much. :( Actually, I need to find out if I am going to be required to spend 10 days in Japan if I'm going to test. If I am, then I'm not going this year, and I could probably afford to do a rally. Hard to say at this point, though.