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28 July 2004 @ 01:22 pm
State of the Sandpanther  



Today I've been in a strange space. I woke up feeling pretty rotten physically, and have only improved a little bit. But for some reason I've been feeling really upbeat and relaxed. I've started being happily reminded of trips I've taken recently. I woke up from a dream where I was chatting with someone in Japanese, and suddenly ended up with "Sand In My Shoes" stuck in my head. (WALES!!)

I shouldn't be too surprised, I suppose. I've started crawling the walls, desperate to go on a trip somewhere -- anywhere, as long as it's out of the area, and preferably out of the country.

(cirdan_havens, I've been enjoying reading about your upcoming Europe trip. Even though I'm not going, it's been fun to vicariously imagine what it would be like to be going. There's just something day-dreamily cool thinking about being in Paris one day, Venice the next...)

I find it encouraging that I'm actually feeling interested in my hobbies again. For the past several months it's seemed like just too much bother. I was starting to wonder if I'd just permanently lost interest in all of my (former?) favorite things.

I think the problem is that I've been really, really stressed for the past few months. Yeah, I know, shocking. I think I'm the only one surprised. I know I probably shouldn't be surprised, but I haven't felt that stressed. It's been like a pot that is slowly coming to a boil, where the heat gets turned up gradually but I don't really notice it going up, I just notice that it's hot.

With the house stuff finished (except for actually moving -- and enjoying!!) I think a lot of the pressure has started to drop. Work is still a stress. But that's got definitive timelines and it's in the process of changing, so that's all good. Money is still tight -- but at least I don't have to save every single penny so that I'll have enough to pay some undefined sum at some undefined date. My bank accounts don't give me the warm, cuddly feeling they ones did. But now all I have is to deal with the higher monthly payments and to start saving up again so that I do feel more cozy about my savings cushions.





In unrelated news, I just found out that my company was just bought out. Not sure what this means. Excuse me while I go laugh hysterically.

If any one knows of somewhere that is looking for a database applications developer, please feel free to mention it to me. I deal mainly in Visual Basic and SQL Server, but am not unfamiliar with Oracle and Informix. My resume can be found online here.
 
 
 
etoile.noiretoilenoir959 on July 28th, 2004 10:42 pm (UTC)
Good luck starting the job hunt!
Max Kaehn: Hackslothman on July 28th, 2004 10:46 pm (UTC)
Want me to start telling headhunters about you?
Sandpanthersandpanther on July 29th, 2004 02:35 am (UTC)
Yes, absolutely, please, and thank you!

P.S. I will be submitting an updated resume to you again. Though at this point the revisions will be relatively minor, since I have kept everything pretty up-to-date for the past four years anyway.
Max Kaehn: Cuteslothman on July 29th, 2004 03:01 am (UTC)
Expect headhunter contacts shortly...
SnarkyLlamallamabitchyo on July 28th, 2004 11:33 pm (UTC)
There's always a couch for you to crash on in scenic Connecticut. (Not that I would recommend CT to anyone.)
Cirdancirdan_havens on July 29th, 2004 02:25 am (UTC)
Ah yes. The flee the country feeling. But you will be in Oct, right?

Oh, glad you like the update. I'm always worried I'm rambling and should just shut up. Let's go to Finland! :)

Loss of interest in hobbies. Hm, yeah. I know that one too. Oddly enough, that IniD interest is coming around again. Maybe it's because you mentioned Stage 4 last time. Was listening to one of my random IniD CDs just recently.

Company bought out. *smirk* Well, that only adds stress to people in the company, but it's still funny for some reason.
Sandpanthersandpanther on July 29th, 2004 02:43 am (UTC)
The flee the country feeling. But you will be in Oct, right?

Well, November. I think. Depends somewhat on the job and on finances.


Oddly enough, that IniD interest is coming around again.

Ditto. I had sort of cooled off on that for a while. But now I'm back to posting translations and stuff. Maybe we should get together and watch some sometime?

any bought out. *smirk* Well, that only adds stress to people in the company, but it's still funny for some reason.

Oh, I think it's hillarious. I've been laughing for hours about it. Okay, so there are inconveniences to it. But it's still pretty darn amusing. And it means that I can start job hunting now, rather than waiting until the end of October. So there is good here.
Cirdancirdan_havens on July 29th, 2004 03:07 am (UTC)
Maybe we should get together and watch some sometime?

Sure! Let me know when's best for you.

And it means that I can start job hunting now, rather than waiting until the end of October. So there is good here.

*nod* Sometimes we need that push. It'll be nice to go to Europe after breaking away from my job. Make it more relaxing. And then hopefully come back refreshed.
puddlemizutamari on July 29th, 2004 01:28 pm (UTC)
my company got bought out too and the new company (a Japanese company) XD -'s policies REALLY SUCK! So the buy-out, while it -almost assuridly- includes picking up my contract, there's going to be a LOT of downsides... *pout*
and I REALLY understand the pot-scenario! I'm totally there with you! Hmm... *reaches in the water to get something brushing past her leg* Want a carrot?

I want to leave the country too... I've been getting really... anxious/mentally bored lately. I need to get away! Finland, I hear, is LOVELY this time of year! ^o~
Leighlucifie on July 30th, 2004 09:59 pm (UTC)
Your company wasn't "bought out" they just got too big and NASA told them to take a hike because the government's stupid that way and likes to punish buisnesses for being successful. The new group taking over the contract just sucks more than the old one.

Hey! I said I wanted to go to Finland and no one wanted to go with me and now its too late to make the rally and I just want to say that I WANTED TO GO DAMMIT and no-one wanted to go with me (and its been a really long week. I'm going home now ;_;)... *mumble-mumble-mumble* How unreasonably expensive is it to get to Australia again?
Sandpanthersandpanther on July 30th, 2004 10:59 pm (UTC)
I wanna go to Finland! I didn't say I didn't want to go. I just can't this year, *SOB*!!! (No, I'm not being tormented by looking at a picture of Tommi driving out of Service in GB, why do you ask?)

Re: Australia: $2000 cheap enough for you? *wince* Italy would be cheaper. Or Spain. Spain is "relatively" cheap. I think the tickets are "only" around $800 for me. *wince* I'm getting that it's around $760 for you guys. Which, come to think of it, may actually make Spain cheaper than England overall, since I think the stage passes are under USD$70.

*smacks self on head* Not thinking about it. I can't afford it. I just bought a house.