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08 April 2004 @ 11:06 am
Scheduling, Planning, and Death  

Work just threw three unscheduled roll-outs at me in the next four days, starting with today. This is on top of the project that I'm working on being delayed thanks to a near relative of feeping creatureitis.

This annoys me. I was sitting here wondering just why it is annoying me so much. And then I realized something...

My life right now, you could call it a little chaotic. Right now at this moment, I don't know if I'm leaving work early to go meet with my realator or leaving work late because I have so much to do and if I'm not meeting with my realator, then I probably should stick around and try and get somewhere on the growing pile of work. I don't know if I'm going out tomorrow night or not. I don't know what time I am meeting my realator on Saturday, and so I don't know if this leaves time for redeeming my promise to my mother to take her out car shopping. I do know (now) when my roommie is moving out, which means that I can cancel the plans we were thinking about making to go to Santa Barbara next weekend and I can make new plans with the realator. And that's just my life for the next few days.

On a more cosmic scale, I don't know when I'm buying a house, which means that I don't know when I'm moving This makes it hard to plan if I'm going to Rim at the beginning of May since I don't know if I need to be house hunting, signing paperwork, or moving. I really need to take a vacation, but I don't know when I'm going to be moving or what my finances will look like, or, or, or --!!

You get the picture. There is so much going on in my life right now that anything unplanned-for has to be evaluated for potential impact on any of countless contingency plans. If I need to schedule something new in, I can. But only if I have several hours to finish crunching the numbers to figure out the impact it has on all the other balls up in the air. I think this is why anything unexpected just plain pisses me off right now. I need the scheduled things to stick to the schedule, or the whole mess just... well, it gets ugly.

So, yeah. I guess part of what I'm trying to say is that if you try to throw something unexpected in my schedule, don't get offended if I give you a paniced look and ask for a few minutes to deal with it. And the same thing goes if you cancel and take something out of my schedule. Right now I need the inertia, and I don't have the brain power to process it if I suddenly end up with more free time than I was expecting. I know it sounds dumb, but that's the way I am.
Current Mood: frazzled
Taerieltaeriel on April 8th, 2004 07:23 pm (UTC)
tomorrow night
*nod* I can totally understand your stress on this. When you have so many things to take care of, not knowing when/if stuff is happening makes things quite chaotic. Or knowing that you have a million things to do, and having the sinking feeling that you won't get them all done...

Are you sure you're up for SG tomorrow night? (I just sent email replying positively to your query, before I saw this post.) If you need the time to take care of other things, or to just not have to make the drive down, let me know. OTOH, if you need a chance to get out and unwind by watching the fun, happy episodes at the end of season 5, I'm game. (And if you'd feel more comfortable keeping attendence to just us, honestly, don't hesitate to say so. I know where you're coming from on the stress thing, and I'm the one who gave you a similar preference recently! )